Thoughts of He at 26 weeks
I’m okay , I’m just really thinking a lot about baby and if I’m going to be okay to do it on my own. I really hope my mum is here for me when I give birth and I hope I will be okay if she isn’t. He is trying ,I know that because time is getting close to babies due date that he’s trynna do better. In my heart I know he is still the person I loved.I do take accountability that it was my fault for not leaving him earlier but I was just honestly way too blinded by his potential and what he could’ve been that I didn’t realise who he actually was becoming. My mind will never forget what he put me through.On phone when we discuss baby and babies growth and how his kicking etc. I’ll be okay with him and able to discuss things and then I snap out of it and remember what he did to me.Part of me wants him to be apart of this experience because I know now although his changed I did still love apart of him ,and even if he’s not that same person that I know ,that part of him that I loved and th